"Consideration..."
Consider this...
well don't then.
Does anyone know what consideration means?
How about the art of conversation? you know, where you actually listen and share.
Or does anyone really give a shit about anything but themselves?
How about respecting people? Anyone know what that is?
Another beautiful day in the neighborhood :) Instead of spending all day inside, I'm going to get some outside work done.
After last night I figure it would just make better sense to chill out and be outside and active, physically. This always helps when my brain tries to think way more into things than I care to respond to. Or maybe I have a valid point and the right to be pissed off, at some very inconsiderate people.
Last night I had a chance to talk with family members that I haven't seen for a period of time long enough that we needed to catch up on things. Mainly things about a very sick person in our family (grandma has cancer and is 87). I took a phone call in the presence of my distant cousin and was specifically asked to come down to my uncle's house coz my other uncle wanted to visit with me.
With great hesitation, I told my cousin, whom I had been trying to tell earlier and many times, that I needed to retire for the night, that the call was from my uncle. I knew he would drive by my uncle's house (his step-father) and stop, invited or not, and felt that if I didn't say something to him he would have taken my position as one of withholding information from him.
After arriving and listening to my cousin (he did get down ASAP to *talk* about what is important to him) I pulled him off to the side and I tried to let him know in a kind way, that it was probably not a good idea for him to partake in this family conversation. I believe a certain amount of privacy is needed in times of family situations that pertain to *close family members* and that the flow of thought needs to be free and without interruptions from people who do not care. He thanked me for letting him know and we both returned to the conversation. I had suggested to him to stay for a bit, have another beer and then maybe fade into the woodwork, so as not to be so obvious that I requested he leave. to make a conflict obvious makes everyone uncomfortable. I didn't want my uncles to catch the drift coz they had been gone while attending to the needs of their sick mother all week and had just returned from a stressful situation.
I sat there listening in amazement at my cousin rambling on about his job to my uncle, my other uncle talking on the phone about *who-knows-what* to *who knows*, and a neighbor (who ignores me unless I am in the presence of my uncle) ease drop on the whole sorted affair.
I gave up and came home, very frustrated and agitated, after listening to the same old shit coming out of the people that live in their own little world and only concern themselves with the babble and drift that comes out of their mouth. It would seem that people with their own agendas never fail to understand that other conversations are more important, than their own. This was the case last night.
Realistically, I can not control what others think or say or do. Commonsense would tell ya, they will not change and you have to tolerate their individuality, if your big enough to do it. truth be known is that there is a difference in people and we need to get along as best we can. On the other hand, if people are so damned ignorant that you cannot share in a conversation (it takes two or more people to share) they really need to get educated and wake up to reality. I won't waste my time sitting around and listening to the one sided running mouth about me attitude. It's their loss, not mine and not because I have so much to offer but, its a fact that we all have something to offer- not just them.
Reality always points the finger: The same old shit comes out of my mouth when I'm living in my own little world and only concern myself with the babble and drift that comes out of my mouth. I can only expect others to feel the same way about me when it happens.